幼い微熱を下げられないまま 神様の影を恐れて
隠したナイフが似合わない僕を おどけた歌でなぐさめた
色褪せながら ひび割れながら 輝くすべを求めて
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
夢を濡らした涙が 海原へ流れたら
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
隠したナイフが似合わない僕を おどけた歌でなぐさめた
色褪せながら ひび割れながら 輝くすべを求めて
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
夢を濡らした涙が 海原へ流れたら
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
切り札にしてた見えすいた嘘は 満月の夜にやぶいた
はかなく揺れる 髪のにおいで 深い眠りから覚めて
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
ゴミできらめく世界が 僕たちを拒んでも
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
夢を濡らした涙が 海原へ流れたら
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
ゴミできらめく世界が 僕たちを拒んでも
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
君と出会った奇跡が この胸にあふれてる
きっと今は自由に空も飛べるはず
夢を濡らした涙が 海原へ流れたら
ずっとそばで笑っていてほしい
This was my favourite song 5 years ago. And for the past 5 years I have totally forgotten about its existance until I heard it playing on Sarah's laptop last month. "Penny...remember this song? Its our favourite!!!" she said and I was like.....yeah actually I do.....
After Sarah left, I secretly went to look for this song in my ancient MD player under my chunk of notes and biscuits wrappers. Although I found it, I was reluctant to listen to it again because of the overdose 5 years ago. But when I finally pressed the play button, memories came gushing back to the front my puny brain. I was thankful I pressed the button and re-visited that compartment in my brain that was left untouched all these years. Untouched because, too many new things have been coming along my way and I have forgotten about those that I once treasured and loved dearly. Thankful because I earned 5 minutes of happy memories that I have lost for 5 years.
The feeling I had while listening to this song was like flipping through a photo album of me wtih someone who is no longer around. I can almost feel the happiness and sweetness while looking at the album, but once I reach final page just like when the song ended, whats left behind is only, NOW.
The reason why I did not want to press the play button in the start was not because of the overdose I realised. It was because I was afraid of facing the fact that what will be left in front of me once the song ended is NOW.
Throughout these years, I have learnt to acknowledge the fact that people leave us and memories will just remain as memories. Nevertheless, at any one point in life, we will be left with our memories, ourselves and NOW so be grateful that at least we still have NOW to play around with.
After Sarah left, I secretly went to look for this song in my ancient MD player under my chunk of notes and biscuits wrappers. Although I found it, I was reluctant to listen to it again because of the overdose 5 years ago. But when I finally pressed the play button, memories came gushing back to the front my puny brain. I was thankful I pressed the button and re-visited that compartment in my brain that was left untouched all these years. Untouched because, too many new things have been coming along my way and I have forgotten about those that I once treasured and loved dearly. Thankful because I earned 5 minutes of happy memories that I have lost for 5 years.
The feeling I had while listening to this song was like flipping through a photo album of me wtih someone who is no longer around. I can almost feel the happiness and sweetness while looking at the album, but once I reach final page just like when the song ended, whats left behind is only, NOW.
The reason why I did not want to press the play button in the start was not because of the overdose I realised. It was because I was afraid of facing the fact that what will be left in front of me once the song ended is NOW.
Throughout these years, I have learnt to acknowledge the fact that people leave us and memories will just remain as memories. Nevertheless, at any one point in life, we will be left with our memories, ourselves and NOW so be grateful that at least we still have NOW to play around with.
1 comment:
Just wanna tell you that I lurp you babe.
Been too busy prep for the exams to catch up with you babe. Will do that in sg alright?? :):)
Sora made toberu...
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