This is going to be the first blog I have ever written and it could well be the last as well.
I have never believed in this blogging thing and I have never thought I would ever need one...but who knows really....who knows about anything.
Its the exam period and instead of reading my ever so exciting anatomy textbook, I have been doing everything else but that....ya tell us something we dont know penny.
The objective of this blog is to bring out the most baka baka shi penny....so if you are going to tell me you are not impress about what i m going to write in this virtual space.....then I am going to tell you i am not impressed either.
I am a very angry person today. Anger is oozing out every single pore in my body. Maybe its exam stress but its not a valid reason. Oh then again penny. it could jolly well be PMS....cant be....not anywhere near at all.
Angry because I had a pointless argument with a friend. It was so pointless I have no idea how it started, why it started, then how it ended and what was the conclusion to that quarrel. Neither do I know what the both of us were aiming at. Well at least from my point of view, I think i am trying to make things as clear as glass noodles but apparently its mudding the water according to my friend. Sorry but I am a little shocked over here.
I guess I felt more insulted after having a serious conversation with this friend. Because my friend also told me..." I know you are more affected about this thing than I am....so you can do whatever you want to do" "I just feel that all these things you have said and thought its all nonsense penny" "I am not going to read your email because I think its all bull" WOah woah woah....those were brillant statements isnt it. But I guess I shouldnt be too proud the fact that by attempting to express myself and to clear misunderstandings, things appear to be a piece of bullshit to this someone I call a friend....I mean whats wrong with me....Issit the excessive mackeral or nutella. Then again, is the problem me?
Frankly, I do not know how to react to those statements. SO I laughed. hahaha..... Its funny because at that moment, I was stuck...stuck in my laughter....Funny but not so funny.
Friends come and go. I try my best to make them stay happily when they are still a friend. but the question is, how should I react to friend who despite knowing my buttons, push them...actively. Seriously, I may be a little strange here and there, but generally normal and big hearted I would say. I do not in anyway deserve such treatment, expecially from this friend. Then again,I could be lying about the fact that I am normal and NICE. But you have eyes, and you know the truth.
But the queer thing is.....All these episodes with this friend is so much of a de javu. Well, I have been through this exact same process of quarreling, bickering and screaming with someone else too. Someone else who I now call my close friend. Its going to be a very very tedious process to know a person even if its just a friend and I am a lazy person. So....after all these venting of my anger, the conclusion is we shall let time tell.
Though i am not someone who likes to let time tell me things....because I rather tell time what I want, just to make sure. Sometimes you just have to trust, Penny.
Period.
